April 2010
5 posts
Why would I choose a topic for school that hurts so bad?
I feel like someone is sucking the air out of my lungs.
The physical pain that comes with emotion can be so intense.
(386): Don’t ask how, but I’m pretty sure my name is now on a lease to a taco bell franchise in maryland…
(519): her name was charlotte except you kept calling her chatroulette and yelling at her to show you her boobs
(412): remeber the saying “bad choices make good memories” dude our bad choices dont even make memories.
(919): It’s hard for me to sext him...
My kidneys hurt. Story of my life. Except for just right kidney, I am now both kidneys. Ugh.
No drive to get my media kit done, even though this will likely be a huge part of my portfolio…. If I ever go into PR.
I’m in a weird mood…. I think it’s the weather. I am so over the cold. The 80+ degree weather is what I love.
I think I’m getting really depressed about...
for all of those ...
He’s adorable….
davecandoit:
… who took time to feed me answers ::: i give you my eternal palm love
keep it secret … keep it safe
March 2010
9 posts
This isn't what my life was supposed to be about -...
I was watching this really stupid movie a little while ago, but there was a memorable quote, which I forget the exact words too…. But, it really reitterated something I need to remember - If life isn’t the way you want it to be, you need to do something about it - make the necessary changes. Start now, don’t put it off. There are obviousloy limitations to things you can do this...
I’m literally nauseous. It’s finally becoming reality, in the most horrific way. Days left until I tell them, which will be like a weight off my chest but at the same time the thought makes me never want the weight to be gone. I’m not sure I can breathe without it. I’m crying thinking about it. This is one of, if not, the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through....
It’s never good enough, to just be good enough.
I’m writing songs I’ll never sing.
I need to get slightly sloppy so I can write something open, worth something with feeling and meaning.
That’s when I’m at my best, only in terms of writing of course.
I would write you the world if it mattered, if it got us somewhere.
I’m a rollercoaster of emotions today. Big decisions are eating away at me.
I need to step up and just do it already.
February 2010
1 post
daydreamming.
Life plan. Live on a strawberry farm in California, not far from the ocean, ideally with mountain views, wonderful green land :) warm sunny weather - spend my days managing and promoting some talented musicians.
Travel the world, for work and play.
Yeah, life might just be perfect if that could come true.
If only all of my bestest friends could live with me on my strawberry farm.
:)
November 2009
3 posts
sense a pattern?
you can’t break what never was. 2 minutes ago from web
i’m a mess of one-lined sad songs and forget-me-nots. if it was possible to love you more, i would. 4 minutes ago from web
sort through the mess, the hype, the bull shit, the drama, buried deep is something real. 13 minutes ago from web
don’t say it if you don’t mean. 14 minutes ago from web
there’s a line...
I’m just so scared you’ll figure me out.
So since law school is looking more and more like what I shall do, I think this summer will have to be more about
- checking out law schools, which is a good thing, because that means travel! : )
- but staying back here and interning and working, to save money for all the travel
- super prepping for the June LSAT, in case prep for this february LSAT doesn’t go quite as...
October 2009
10 posts
EVERY AVENUE - PICTURE PERFECT stream!!! :) →
get away.
I’m planning for my get away. I’m not sure if I’m running away or if a clean start is even polssible for me, the same problems will probably follow me - but all I want is a shot in a new place, and I want that place far from here. It’s not Grand Rapids, it’s more everything else. I’m too close to home and history, yes 3 1/2 hrs is way to damn close. I keep...
September 2009
16 posts
WatchI love this song. SO much.
if you aren’t willing to sacrifice, why should i?
i’ve jumped head first for you a thousand times,
and a thousand times i’ve barely walked away from the situation.
that’s why i’ve learned not to care,
but that’s left me caring far too much for others.
pain, letdown, heartbreak - it’s nothing new.
LOVE is important to me,
FAITH is...
she is amazing.
"W"
So, I finally watched the movie “W”…. now I have been wanting to see it since I saw it advertised, but something else always came up when it came time to rent movies.
First, I’d like to start with the fact that I had no idea that this movie was as serious as it was - I thought the movie was a comedy about GW and the mistakes he has made.
Second, I will admit, I knew very...
addddicted <3 3EB
found some old livejournals, still looking for “the one”
this stuff, someday…. the truth will reveal itself.
sometimes, the words just come.
my life isn’t simple; it’s complicated.
i’m not perfect, but rather far from it.
i try not to be judgemental, but sometimes i fail.
i want so much more out of life than this,
and i want it all for you too.
i’m totally overdramatic sometimes.
i have mastered “bitch” in more ways than one.
but i care, so much more than anyone could guess.
i truly, truly...
August 2009
13 posts
sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same
those words scare the shit out of me, because they are the truth and i’m hardly strong enough to make that progress on my own.
